Keyword: Marathon Training
Reflecting on Marathon Training: A Journey Beyond Competition
Two years ago, I achieved a remarkable personal record during my marathon training, leaving me in disbelief as I glanced at the clock. It felt surreal, almost as if I were lying to myself. Now, as I navigate the very paths where I once pushed my limits and soared high, I can’t help but feel a tinge of nostalgia; it feels like a beautiful dream that I sometimes wish to relive.
A Decade of Racing
As an enthusiastic marathon runner who has participated in races for over 15 years, I experienced a consistent upward trajectory in my performance. Each race brought with it a sense of accomplishment, often recorded faster times on the clock. However, after receiving an email a few weeks ago confirming my acceptance into the elite start of the New York City Marathon—an achievement I had coveted since logging a remarkable time before the pandemic—excitement turned to apprehension. This Sunday, I am braced to run what might be the slowest marathon of my life.
Challenges Post-Pandemic
Reflecting on everything that has transpired since my last marathon, my training regimen has not been as rigorous as it once was. The isolation of recent times allowed many of us, myself included, to distance ourselves from the incessant pressure of performance. Jogging alone without a watch has become the norm, making it easy to overlook my deceleration. However, the reality of a 26-mile journey through New York City will inevitably expose the disparities in my current abilities.
The Call of the Historic Race
Despite my uncertainties, the desire to participate remains strong. It has been nearly a decade since I last ran the New York City Marathon, even though I’ve lived just two miles from the course the entire time. This year’s historic 50th running of the race, especially after last year’s cancellation due to the pandemic, offers a unique opportunity. It’s a chance to embrace not just the thrill of competition, but also the joy of being part of a significant moment.
Understanding the Pressure of Performance
As I approach this race, I find myself grappling with a pervasive fear: the fear of regression. At 37 years old, I have long measured my self-worth against my ability to push forward. The psychological impact of my pursuit of success, often described by Harvard professor Arthur Brooks as “success addiction,” has taken a toll on many aspects of my life, such as work and relationships. The relentless chase of achievements can overshadow the simple joys running once brought me.
Finding Balance and Acceptance
As I confront the specter of my former self on the course, I am realizing how crucial it is to accept where I am today. The lessons learned in the past two years have taught me that slowing down in life doesn’t equate to the end. Like many others, I am awakening to the reality that what I once had is not waiting for my return. It’s time to redefine what success means and embrace the changes that life has ushered in.
Inspiring Stories in the Running Community
Many, including elite runners like Shalane Flanagan, are navigating similar journeys of rediscovery. After undergoing a career-ending double knee surgery, Flanagan aimed to reclaim her passion for running while participating in the New York City Marathon alongside amateurs. Her transformation has been an inspiration, showcasing that embracing a slower pace can reveal new joys within the sport.
A Mindset Shift for Race Day
As race day approaches, my intention is to rise before dawn and fully immerse myself in the experience. I plan to dash through Central Park, reveling in the camaraderie and energy from the crowd. Crossing the finish line, I will celebrate as if I’ve achieved a new personal best, smiling at the ghost of my past self. It’s this journey of acceptance and newfound joy that redefines my marathon training, reminding me that every moment is an integral part of my running legacy.
